Wednesday, March 3, 2010

A Life So Brilliant

Throughout my busy days, I'm setting aside small pockets of time to do what I love, daydream, and think. I thought I'd share with all of you everything I adore right now.

Ribbons and silk. I like touching, feeling, wearing materials that ignite the body.

I had a dream last night that a deadly virus infected the human race. Everyone was fine, except the virus caused everyone to lose the skin on their faces. So we all just walked around, skeleton skulls, no eyeballs or brains, but still able to tell who was who by what they wore and their mannerisms.
A boy ran by wearing the same outfit as Max from Where the Wild Things Are, crown and all. He had his face. He was a survivor.
In my dream, these people with faces could not be trusted. They were wild and careless and threatened our way of life. I woke up as we were plotting to find the boy.
My dreams have been so strange lately. I'm still running, still falling, still crying, but I think I'm getting stronger. I don't want that though. My dreams are where I stay vulnerable.

Cassie from Skins, my new favorite show. I devoured the first season over the weekend. It's a show on E4 about a fictitious group of teenagers living in Bristol, England. Skins is scandalous, sexy, provocative, and beautiful. You can't not watch it and not feel like you wish you were a teenager.
Cassie is my favorite character. She is a lovely girl in her lovely dreamworld, though her reality is much harsher. She has an eating disorder and parents that don't pay attention to her. I cringe when I see her on screen because the actress who plays her does a damn fine job.

Here is my spring break destination. I'm off to a city I've never been to, with very little money to boot, but I just know with San Francisco. I know I'll find a job there (naturally my apps are going out there this week). To stand with two feet on the ground of a world you don't know may be frightening to many.
To me, it is liberation.
I have a very strong, positive feeling about this. I feel like Vianne from Chocolat most days. The Northern wind pulling me in certain directions. I go when I feel it is time, and now, I do feel Northern California is just right.

Friends! I have the best roommates and friends, both at home, on campus, off campus, and in the blogosphere, that I could have ever asked for. My friends are darlings, beautiful inside and out. And they all make me laugh more than any one girl ever could :)

Perfect by Depeche Mode is one of my favorite songs this week.

Last Night in Paris by Moam is also another favorite.

"...Katie knew this was the man she wanted. She'd ask nothing more than to look at him and to listen to him for the rest of her life. Then and there, she decided that those privileges were worth slaving for all her life. Maybe that decision was her great mistake. She should have waited until some man came along who felt that way about her. Then her children would not have gone hungry; she would not have had to scrub floors for their living and her memory of him would have remained a tender shining thing. But she wanted Johnny Nolan and no one else and she set out to get him."
- A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, Betty Smith

I LOVE THIS BOOK. Best thing I've read in a long, long time.
I see bits and pieces of myself in Katie Rommely.

Banana wearing a top hat. Stylish fruit :)

Hipster sock monkey...I want one of these? Kinda? It might wreck the perfect white stuffed plush thing I currently have with my stuffed ghosts and Pillsbury Doughboy though.

Love to you all,


Romany said...

I love this post. You're a beautiful writer.
I'm off to listen to those songs now! Is the book sad? It sounds sad? I might read it now (despite finding reading quite stressful), but I don't know that I could handle a sad book at the moment...?

The Sequin Cat said...

I just loved this post, Vianne.

Adventures of a Sequin Cat

JennyMac said...

You are so positive and upbeat. Love the way you write. I love Depeche Mode too and downloaded this crazy acoustic remake of Personal Jesus. It is fantastic.

Our little man has a sock monkey..Bla Bla who is not nearly as hip as that one. lol.

natalie said...

The deadly virus dream sounds extremely creepy, yet awesome at the same time. Dreams are such strange things, aren't they?

Uhhh, I've really really been wanting to start watching Skins after hearing so much about it, but it seems like it'd take forever to catch up with! I'll try to this summer maybe.

Your spring break plans sound awesome :D I wish I could do that, and just go off randomly to San Fran.

And absolutely gorgeous pictures. Especially the sock monkey ;)

Anonymous said...

I used to love Skins, Cassie was always my favourite character too. We're on to (I think!) the 3rd season over here, with a new cast and it's just not the same.
You're a wonderful writer by the way!

Jaime said...

Cute post- I love that pic of the 2 best friends :)

Propoquerian said...

couple of things--when is your spring break? i may be headed to san francisco myself! and your must have made that up. It's too vivid--has too many hidden, but just understandable enough, messages! Heather, I love your reality and your dreams :)
And I am one of those people who can be afraid of new ground. Another reason I love you--you're not. you're in inspiration :)

Anonymous said...

I LOVE ribbons, I have loads of them that I wear in my hair sometimes! :) I love all of your pictures, xo

English Rose ♥ said...

This was such a wonderful post, i'm so glad to hear your making time for yourself and realising and doing the things you love and what makes you happy.

I adoree ribbons and silk - best feeling ever!

Thanks so much for stopping by darling =]

Stay safe and chic ma chérie,
English Rose x

drollgirl said...

oh those dreams sound awfully scary! lately i have been so tired that i don't remember my dreams. i like it that way! ugh. the scary ones linger and make a girl worry. no fun.

i hope you land a rad job in sf! it is a lovely city. and i love the weather there! i am from nor cal and visit there from time to time. i think you will like it! :)

prashant said...

Love the way you write. I love Depeche Mode too and downloaded this crazy acoustic remake of Personal Jesus. It is fantastic.

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Sadako said...

Love Tree Grows in Brooklyn, as well as sock monkey and banana pic.

kim said...

i need a hipster sock monkey. and a weekend in S.F.

XXX, Kim

belle in arms said...

What a creepy but somewhat beautiful dream about the human race lossing their facial skin.

Your writing is so great, I could read all day.