Tuesday, December 8, 2009

One Time Too Many



OH NO. NO. NO. NO.

I promised myself I would never write about this, but myself is running off of 30 minutes of sleep today. I dozed off in all three of my classes today and a few times while I was trying to tutor. Bad, I know.

I saw you today. It's been awhile and even though I know it's just my sleep-deprived mind talking, you looked better than ever. You even wore a nice pair of pants.

Shut up, sleepyhead. Just go to sleep and forget that today really happened. Dreamland beckons, but I am miles from it again.

You, and you know who you are, you looked great.

I didn't like that you looked so nice.
I didn't like that your hug felt too warm.
And I really didn't like that you had this perfect 5 o'clock shadow thing happening and all I wanted to do was reach up and touch your face, but I know you would have gotten weirded out even if it is me and that's how I behave.

And I really, really didn't like that you didn't look at me once when I left, even though I was behaving obnoxiously loud and irritating.

Above all, I hate that you will never read this. You know it though. You'd get the white roses reference. I hope.

You always will.

I am running. I'll meet you halfway.

Love to you all,
Heather

5 comments:

Jaime @ laviejaime said...

Great post.

Love your header too- so provocative!

drollgirl said...

oh girl. i hear you. oh, this stuff is so hard. i am in the midst of pining after someone that is gone, and that would probably never work out the way i wanted it to. but it still hurts, and it is hard to stop wanting. :(

hang in there.

Aurora said...

heather, this is truly lovely. I always preferred this kind of love.. though I do have a boyfriend, and a girlfriend I might add, I still think love shows its best side this way. maybe it's destructive thinking, dunno.

Sadako said...

I agree--your header rocks, and so do all your photographs. You've got one of the prettiest blogs I've read!

C A said...

Hi darling, I've been so busy lately, sorry for the late response! Your blog is allways amazing

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